Selling your self short after keeping your hands to the plough

 

 

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Keeping your hand to the plough is a subject that is descriptive and it is practical. Practical in the sense that living is doing and nothing depicts doing more than plowing a field, getting it ready for planting.

When you work on a field you have to be focused on your task. You will run into obstacles, things will not always go your way. You are relying on some force greater than yourself to actually do the heavy work, it would be pretty silly to have puny you pulling the plough and the oxen driving. You still have to use your brains. You have to stop or turn a corner once in while to see how well you are doing, where you can improve.

That to me is life at its finest. Being focused on a task, glad to be on this side of the grass, able to see the beauty of the world at all times. To face obstacles and successfully deal with them and find in, or under, them a gem that you can take into the rest of your life to make it better. Knowing that it may rain or other things may interfere with the task, but know it will work out in the long run. The human view is far too short and self centered. When we are honest with ourselves most things have worked out well in our lives, maybe not as we would have liked, but well just the same.

The importance of looking back after a period, not just to see how far we have come but where we can be better cannot be stressed enough. I am not talking a week, more like a year. You will be amazed at what can happen.

A woman told me a story once that went like this.

Her counselor told her that she now had all the tools and knew how to use them. The last exercise her counselor had her do was write down her dreams and aspirations. Then her counselor told her to put them away for 10 years. The counselor bet her that she sold herself short. At the end of ten years she looked at the list of dreams and aspirations. Most had been filled and accomplished in the first 18 months. She had, as the counselor said, sold herself short.

Finding inspiration to continue the fight

 

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Sometimes we need to find inspiration to continue our fight to overcome this illness that plagues us even on a good day. When I need to be inspired that this fight against BP is worth continuing I have taken to watching Stephen Fry’s wonderful documentary on BP, which can be found on YouTube.

What I find in that documentary is hope. Hope that although I am unique in my BP, I am not alone. That, as Tony Robins says, “Success leaves clues.” I can follow those clues to mental wellness. First I have to find some who have been successful at living with and overcoming their BP.

For the last year and a bit I have had an external force doing its best to derail me. Some external issue that I have no control over that is result of an act of neglect in a previous life. This has created an internal battle and as the battle ebbs and flows so do my moods. For most of the past year I have felt like a rock skimming across a lake knowing that once the momentum wains I will sink to the bottom of the abyss. So far I have kept up some forward momentum and to that end I even posted Victor Klam’s quote on my wall. “Even if you fall on your face, you’re still moving forward.

I haven’t quite fallen on my face this time but I have come close, I need to keep my head up my eyes forward and my feet moving. I suggest you do the same.

Keep to the path, the hard one. The easy one does not go anywhere.