Those possessive words me, mine and my, permeate our lives in our shared illness. We talk about my illness, my feelings and when we feel hard done by we say, “why can’t you care about “ME”?
All of this shrinks our world to a pin point of poor me and out of whack feelings. Feelings we do not know or understand, but those feelings run our lives. Mostly, we feel everyone and everything is against us. Yet, the simple truth is that we do everything in our power to deny our true self. We are self-created chameleons. Trying to “be” everything to everybody. Proving to everyone that we do not care about ourselves, nor do we know how to care for ourselves, but we are totally blind to this fact.
The fifth truth of bipolar is, “we, as BP sufferers, can become useful and productive members of society.” Wrapped up in ourselves and our illness this is an impossible statement to fulfill and one statement we have all failed miserably trying to fulfill. As long as our illness controls our lives we will find it difficult to be either useful or productive. We have all been taught to believe the truth of this quote in one form or another.
“Ambition is the path to success. Persistence is the vehicle you arrive in.” Bill Bradley.
We all want to be a success, but our illness distorts, in so many ways, what success really is. We “think” success is this, or that, and follow that path only to have what we “think” success is pulled out from under us and we fall again into despair.
In dissecting the line, “ambition is the path to success”, I found, for myself, the reason for this failure and surprisingly the path to fulfilling it. Maybe this may help you as well to make the fifth truth a part of your life. For me, it all started with another quote.
“True ambition is not what we thought it was. True ambition is the profound desire to live usefully and walk humbly under the grace of God.” Bill Wilson.
If we have the wrong definition of ambition, we are on the wrong path to success as stated in the first quote. Proving again my “thinking” was wrong. For the first time ever I did not beat myself up for wrong thinking. I simply accepted as fact that my illness makes my thinking flawed. Thanks to the second and third truths, I now have the ability with to replace the wrong thinking with right thinking.
In meditating on this definition of ambition, I slowly developed that profound desire to be useful for no other reason than it is right thing to do. Right thinking and right actions make my life better both, in the eyes of God and the eyes of the world.
Our battle is with our minds, not with other people, places, situations or other external things. Remember our battle will always be with our minds and our minds alone.
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The great inspirational speaker, Jim Rohn, said:” Work harder on yourself than anything else.”
I say,” Work harder on yourself and everything else falls into place like magic.”
Keep to the path, the hard one. The easy one does not go anywhere.