To be a good blogger consistency is the key, at least that is what all the experts say. When I don’t have a blog post ready for Monday because of life issues, my mind tells me I am a bad blogger. If I listened to that negative voice in my head that could be a problem, but I don’t listen to that voice anymore so it’s not a problem. I know I am not a bad blogger. This is a blog about bipolar disorder, written by a bipolar sufferer and the issue that caused the blog post not to be ready for Monday morning were due to bipolar symptoms. I thought sharing this story with you may prove helpful to anyone considering light therapy to combat winter blues.
Last winter due to an early snowstorm on October 8th of 2016, my usual system of vitamins and supplements could not ward off the blues that an early onset of winter brought with it. Before my blues turned into a full-blown depression I ran to my neighborhood pharmacist and she recommended light therapy. I promptly bought a small Lightbox Edge and set it up on my computer. Turning it on for 15 minutes as I wrote each day. This little box of light did wonders for my mood and I kept it up until spring.
This winter as the days shortened I started my routine of vitamins and supplements plus this year I added light therapy starting in October. I have to say that until a few weeks ago I was having the best winter I have ever had in my entire life. A few weeks ago, ever so slowly, ever so slightly I began to climb into mania. My thoughts started to speed up, my speech sped up, my creativity came alive. Solutions to problems sprang up from nowhere. I could multi-task or at least I thought I could. All the signs and symptoms of a manic episode.
I will be the first to tell you no one complains about mania, at least I sure don’t. It is not the mania that is the issue unless we overspend or start doing risky things, which I did not do this time. It is the crash that follows mania that caused the most problems in my life. I did not want that crash to happen again.
As I am the luckiest bipolar sufferer in the world and have access to all the professionals, as I am the clinic’s janitor, I stopped by the Psychiatrists office before he went home. I explained what was happening and what I was doing, the vitamins and supplements, plus the 15 minutes of light therapy a day.
He explained to me that long-term use of light therapy can cause brain stimulation in some people and obviously I am one of those people. He recommended I stop the light therapy which I did. The mania subsided within a few days ending in a bump, not a crash. But the bump did cause me to lose a couple of days. Days in which I would have completed writing my blog and had my blog scheduled to post Monday morning. That said, this is what I learned, that light therapy can be useful for me. I must learn that when I start using my light therapy in October, I can only continue using the therapy for a short period, but what period? Because now I know too much light therapy drives me into mania and the signs of what is too much. I can continue to adjust my strategy for the best life with bipolar I can create for myself. Again, I am confronted with the trial and error of all bipolar management strategies. Today I choose to take that confrontation as a minor and enjoyable challenge.
As we conclude this week’s blog post always remember our battle with bipolar disorder is with and in our minds. Our battle is with our illness not with other people, places, situations or other external things. Remember our battle for mental health will always be with our minds and our minds alone.
The great inspirational speaker, Jim Rohn, said:” Work harder on yourself than anything else.”
I say,” Work harder on yourself and everything else falls into place like magic.”
Keep to the path, the hard one. The easy one does not go anywhere.
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Many other people blog on bipolar and related subjects. Mental wellness is all about knowledge and learning about ourselves. The more informed we are the easier our struggles may be. Each week I attach a blog written by someone else that I found interesting that may inform you as well. This is another author’s work I am just attaching their blog for you. I hope you enjoy this week’s blog created by Lolly Daskal