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Finding inspiration to continue the fight


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Sometimes we need to find inspiration to continue our fight to overcome this illness that plagues us even on a good day. When I need to be inspired that this fight against BP is worth continuing I have taken to watching Stephen Fry’s wonderful documentary on BP, which can be found on YouTube.

What I find in that documentary is hope. Hope that although I am unique in my BP, I am not alone. That, as Tony Robins says, “Success leaves clues.” I can follow those clues to mental wellness. First I have to find some who have been successful at living with and overcoming their BP.

For the last year and a bit I have had an external force doing its best to derail me. Some external issue that I have no control over that is result of an act of neglect in a previous life. This has created an internal battle and as the battle ebbs and flows so do my moods. For most of the past year I have felt like a rock skimming across a lake knowing that once the momentum wains I will sink to the bottom of the abyss. So far I have kept up some forward momentum and to that end I even posted Victor Klam’s quote on my wall. “Even if you fall on your face, you’re still moving forward.

I haven’t quite fallen on my face this time but I have come close, I need to keep my head up my eyes forward and my feet moving. I suggest you do the same.

Keep to the path, the hard one. The easy one does not go anywhere.

The Individuality of BP – Trial and Error should be the bi-words of BP

My Four Truths of Bi-Polar Disorder:

  1. Bi-Polar as an illness is as individual as the people that suffer from it.
  2. Medication is essential in stabilizing our minds.
  3. Developing a strong spiritual self is essential in overcoming our mental anguish and emotional turmoil.
  4. We, as Bi-Polar sufferers, can be useful and productive members of society.

These truths are the result of my battle to overcome Bi-Polar in its various manifestations for most of my 60 years on this planet. The current name for this mental illness is Bi-Polar, but over my lifetime the name has changed a few times, the longest running being Manic Depression. The name may change but the illness does not, the illness remains the same debilitating, isolating demon that it has always been for sufferers. There may be more defined spectrums and subtypes than ever before. The new American Psychiatric Association’s Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders promises an even more defined set of subtypes to help in the fight against BP. These are all steps in the right direction.

The first truth that BP is an illness that is as individual as the people that suffer from it, came from years of finding that sometimes what worked for some people did not work for me. This is especially true in the area of medications, which I will cover in a future blog. However sometimes by slightly modifying what others were doing I found improvement. This lead to the realization that sometimes I need to start at different place than the other person started to achieve the same results. This is a marathon not a sprint and if I need to start in a different way than you that is ok. I found this especially true in the areas of meditation and other spirit building exercises. My mind was racing too fast to be able to sit in static position and quiet my mind. I had to ease into this and teach myself active meditation first. Active meditation will be a subject of a future blog.

In accepting the first truth about the individuality of BP I was able to come to grips with many of frustrations that came along. What I was dealing with may be frustrating, but it was not because I was all the negative things I used to tell myself, it was because this illness is so individualistic that trial and error should be its bi-words.

Keep to the path, the hard one. The easy one does not go anywhere.